Life with Eating Disorders and Self-hatred 1/2: How It All Started

I believe that many of you will understand the story I'm about to tell you. It's not surprising because there are many people suffering eating disorders, self-hatred and desire for perfection. On the other hand, many of these people don't know about their problem or they don't want to admit it to themselves. I stopped being ashamed about my problems and I'm not going to keep them a secret anymore. Just a very few people know my story. That's one of the reasons why I don't want to stay quiet anymore. That doesn't mean writing this article and admiting this problem to the world isn't a challenge for me...

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I was nineteen when when I first realised it's not normal that I hate myself. The worst thing was that I felt like that since I was twelve. How come I only realised it after so many years? I have no idea. I never saw the desire for a perfect body and life and self-hatred as something bad. I felt like this since I was twelve because that was when I fell into anorexia. I only ate one meal a day and by a meal I mean one bread roll or one apple. What's more, I forced myself to work out a lot even though I moved a lot during the day anyway. I weighed myself many times a day when I started seeing results so I could enjoy my success. I jumped of joy when someone noticed that I lost weight and I was even more excited when someone told me that I shouldn't keep losing weight anymore because I already look good enough. I wanted attention. I also liked the control I had over my life and body. I wasn't happy, though. Not even a thinner body would make me feel good enough.

5 Reasons to Visit Copenhagen

It's been one year since I visited the capital of Denmark and I want to remind you why you should visit this amazing city. Last year I published posts about our trip to Copenhagen (Copenhagen Day 1 and Copenhagen Day 2) which are full of photos. Now I want to summarize the reasons why Copenhagen needs to be on your travel list!

1. Food

You could say that there's delicious food in every city and you're right but damn Copenhagen... If you want perfect breakfast you can't go wrong with any bakery in the centre but my personal tip is to go to the Holm's Bager. That's where you start the day right!

10 Reasons to Study Abroad

I spent one semester in Sweden and I loved it. It has been something I wanted to do and now I think everyone should try it. Here's why...
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1. You'll learn to be independent 

I've been "mommy's girl" until I landed in Gothenburg last January. I wasn't able to do anything without her help and suddenly I had to go through bureaucracy and everything connected to moving to another country all by myself. But that wasn't all. I had to take care of myself. You might think it's obvious but I wasn't used to it. I had to plan my time, do laundry, cook and so on. That was a sudden change. So you just have to do all of this because none else will! And that's good...

2. Learn the language

If you've never really used English in everyday life studying abroad will be a huge change for you. You might think your English is good because you have good grades but you might find out it's not true. Suddenly you'll have to speak English to your doctor or learn how to use special machines by reading English instructions. That's when you really learn. And of course you'll learn the informal English which is something you can't practice anywhere else. 

And of course it's not just English :)

Weight Loss: 1 Month In

Some of my readers already know that I started my weight loss journey at the beginning of 2017. And it's going really well! But it's not just about losing weight...

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It's been a month since I started with losing weight. Month is a short period of time but for me it's a huge step! I've started a million times and I always failed. Sometimes I was able to eat healthy and excercise just a couple of days, sometimes longer. But it always ended with overeating. Why? Because I didn't eat enough. I ate just a few calories a day to lose weight fast and to look good in shorts. So I was literally starving myself and that's something you can't do for a long time. This time I turned it all around and did what I should have years ago.

I started losing weight because I wanted to be healthy.